can i scream in the middle of the streets without being bothered!!!!

so folks im so confused right now!! i starting to think that maybe my prince charming may still be a frog! haha but yea i met this guy who seems to be the business but just like every other guy i get involved with there is just some horrible secret that might do some damage. cept this time he told me the secret and at first i thought it was something i could get over and maybe help him overcome but now im not sure. i starting having doubt when i thought about how his secret could affect me and how it might just leave me heart broken all over again so as i do whenever i dont kno what to do i called curtis! and of course he confirmed my worries and advised me with that oh so hurtful truth that you just dont wanna hear... i dont wanna let go of my frog tho! but im afraid that if i even stay friends with him im gonna fall in love with him. God why is it that i never seem to escape the pain in my soul. its like everytime i have hope for love its torn outta my chest it hurts so bad and i dont know how im gonna do what i have to
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NYC

Well i recently made a major step by pickin up out of ohio and headin to the fashion capital of the US and quite the busy place might i add!!!! Yes im talking bout NYC! and while i am away from friends and family i am doin good like real good... i miss my girl Brit and my other buddy netta but other than that life seems to be going in the right direction i feel like i made the right choice to step up my life for the rest of time lol... but yea i feel right i've meet alot of people and seen some new things and seem like im never gonna stop spending money!!! someone tell me why i decided to become a photographer?? nah ikno why because i love it!
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secret love

have you ever tried to tell someone how important they are to you but your plans are always ruined? well i've been dealing with this for 2 years now!!! Grr i'm so saddened. am i really gonna leave for new york without letting tony know that he somehow is one of the most important people in my life?! i hope not because i cant keep it bottled in much longer.. i feel like i'm gonna lose it if i dont tell him soon :(
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friends vs. good friends

okay kids here's the skinny... i have about 4 friends that i'm really close to but those aren't the ones i'm talkin bout when i say good friends... i just realized today ,after talkin to this one cool kid (curtis) that good friends are more than those people you aren't afraid to spill ur soul to... their the people who will make u strong.. umm kay... their the people who act how u want to act and have have good ideas about who they want to be and are working towards them.. ukno dont hang out with dirt unless u want to get dirty.. so maybe we should start hangin out with soap.. yes i think that could work. now i'm not sayin anyone is perfect cause that is def not the case... but when u see someone doing something with their life and being positive maybe u should take notes (and no i dont mean get out a pad and paper, just consider how there actin) but truly the people u hang out with are the ones u end up actin like trust me ikno it
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sneaks!!!!

ay sexy, whats up with those kicks??? whoever has a problem with me wearing sneakers with dresses can kick rocks in high heels umm kay! I am a fan of the whole heels thing i mean i love heels they can make a girl feel sexy but sometimes we should all kick back and let loose and have fun with clothes!! being serious with clothes is only good for people in there forties so let loose and have some fun wear a pair of dunks with skinny jeans.. wear a turquoise dress with some kelly green heels... were a orange purse when nothin else ur wearin is orange... but most importantly kno that sneakers with a dress is just as sexy as heels if you kno how to work it umm kay!!!!
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Confused in a daze?

Lately i haven't know what to think about anything... and its starting to piss me off!!! i tried not thinkin but that impossible cause then i just think about not thinking and it annoys me even more.. but i'm confused as far as faith, men and my future.. the only thing i'm not confused about is new york cause soon that will be my new home and it is the perfect place for me!

People keep telling me to pray about it but i think i've forgotten how to pray.. once prayin was easy for me and i felt like i was really talkin to someone but these days i feel uncomfortable and i kinda feel like if god is listening he doesn't care what i have to say.. i wish i felt like i used to cause i dont like this new feeling... but i don't kno how to get back to the state of mind i used to be in... so will someone hear my cry please
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Let's Shop!

Okay kids... i figured it's time to let u in on a few of my favorite stores!!! and for the most part u can shop online (yay)!! And for some case thats the only place you can shop lol... first up is karamaloop.com: its for those young quirky kids that think they kno fashion.. ie me! they have all kinds of crazy for instance they carry married to the mob, hellz bellz, and stuff u may have never heard of! Next is metroparkusa.com now if u live in the right spot u may just be able to hit them up at the mall otherwise ur stuck to the web :( but i love metropark! they have the type of clothes that any music fanatic would love and i happen to be that... Omg time to move on to 80spurple.com... and can i say yes!! there pretty much a different version of karamaloop as far as brands go but they do have some more mellow peices! And who doesn't kno about urban outfitters.. of course they are going on my list because even though there not as crazy as the rest of the sites they are hit the thought of cool right on the nail.. and of course who doesn't love ebay!!! u can find whatever and i do mean whatever your looking for on ebay.. okay lastly i'd like to announce my love for h and m and american eagle!!!
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His Kisses

Have you ever longed for the lips of a certain someone??? Thats how i feel right now! I don't wanna jinx it but the guy i am talking to amazes me with every text message (tho i wish he would actually call... cause i'm way to nervous to do it). I'm the type of girl who wants a mans voice in her ear.. and god does he have a mans voice!! Its so deep and sexy that maybe its a good thing he is withholding me from it if u kno what i mean

But yea i think i'm going to keep my fingers crossed for this one because he has definitely stepped up to the plate and i'm cryin for a home run cause i'm sick of singles!! I'm not gone lie to myself being single sucks! I need a man's touch on the small of my back...
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Ughhh i feel sick..

have u ever had that feelin that all u wanna do is curl up in a ball and cry? Lord knows i have.. matter fact i think at one point in time i did.. one time me and a boyfriend broke up and for one week i would cry myself to sleep holdin a stupid teddy bear he bought me.. well untill one day i decided to stop feelin sorry for myself and through the damn thing across the room. Never again did i go to sleep with that bear! Why do women go throughout life feeling sorry for themselves because of silly things like men or the broken heel of that super cute pair of balenciaga pumps you just got. Not that i could afford balenciaga pumps or anything; just thought it might make my tale a little more glamorous :) What the hell is our problems??? because ikno that i am an amazing person! so why do i doubt myself when other people are put into the equation?

I am smart, beautiful, fun-loving, and talented at so much crap! I can write poetry, paint, sketch, take a hell of a picture, have good taste in fashion and hell i play sports too! i mean if i wasn't me i would think i was the stuff! but because i am me i always think things like why cant i look like her? why doesn't he want me? i could never have come up with that, or i'll never be as good as her... well its time for a reality check ladies! GUESS WHAT?? we are the shit! (and not the boo boo type) but we are beautiful life giving beings and we all have something were good at even if its being good a nothing :) So its high time we step out in our stilettos and announce to the world to get ready cause we are!! (just dont get ur four and a half inch heel caught in ur skirt and fall flat on ur face) Cause really i'm sick of feeling sorry for myself and i dont kno about u!
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